December

Well lots has happened in Dec.  First was finals for me and NH.  Super stressfull and NH missed passing a class by three points so now she has to remeadiate the class when we get back from Christmas break.  I pray to God that she passes or that makes us a 5 year med student. UGH  I can't stay here one more year, I think I will literally go crazy.

I had this brilliant idea that I was going to make the Christmas gifts this year because we are on such a budget. We as my usual self I procrastinated until the last minute and then I made orange marmalade, cookie mix, scone mix, NH made chocolate covered spoons, I made mom a scrapbook and Ali a blanket.  Plus I managed to get out 34 Christmas cards.  I'm exhausted again just thinking about it!.  LOL

So my insurance finally kicked in and I went to see the Dr. with a whole laundry list of things that are happending to me. It is going to be a slow and expensive process (thank you Carleen for your gift, even at such a high price).  Anyway, the Dr. agreed that I'm super depressed and have anxiety through the roof and put me on meds for that.  I also had my Vit. D checked and it was 14.9 and to give you non medical folks and idead normal levels are 33.0 to 100.0 so I'm having to Vit D3 everyday and will have it checked again in February.  I was finally able to explain to NH just how bad my anxiety was once I realized how bad it was.  My thoughts race all the time about everything, even in my sleep.  I dream about running out of money, NH failing out of school, me losing my job, people diying, paying bills, cleaning the house, cooking dinner, getting my school work done, making sure NH does her homework and passes her tests. It never stops for me, EVER.  Just writing that stressed me out and my heartrate just shot up.  UGH.   NOT to mention how much I miss my family and my friends.  I seriously didn't think it would be this hard to do this! 

So I was able to go to Colorado and spend time with my Dad and visit some people over Christmas break because my office closed and there was no where for me to work.  I had a nice relaxing time except I fell down on my back, which already hurts all the time.  We left Colorado a day early to beat a terrible storm. All in all it was a good trip!