So after I fell in Colorado I started having really hard bloody stools for about 4 days. After that I started throwing up everything I ate and I mean everything. So far I have lost 13lbs and I'm not trying UGH!! Plus, I'm exhuasted.... I'm not just talking tired I'm talking exhausted, like going to bed at 7:30pm and sleeping until 7am everyday. NH finally convinced me to go see the Dr. and I did. We decided to do an MRI on my back since the pain was just unbareable and to do a colonoscopy and endoscopy to see what's happening inside me. Well I have since had my MRI and the results aren't terrible but they are not great either. I have Dejenerative Joint Disease in two places in my thoracic and lumbar spine. I have a bone spur on T12 and I have dessication and a bulging disc on L5-S1. So for now we are going to try therapy to help the pain but it's something that is just going to get worse and I will just have to deal with it. I have my colonoscopy and EGD in a couple of weeks and I will let you know what happens with that.
As far as being exhausted it's getting worse and I'm not very hungry anymore either. I'm going to bed around 6 to 6:30 pm and sleeping completely through the night until the alarm goes off in the morning and I swear I could sleep all day if someone would let me. NH is completely freaked out. The Dr. thinks my thyroid is malfunctioning again so I had my blood drawn today and tested. I should know the results tomorrow.
I also found out this week that my Aunt has stage 4 cervical cancer and I'm just devistated. I know that I used to work with death everyday but I almost think that that is why i'm not handling this very well. I know what's coming. I am praying for her everyday and I hope she is not in pain, but I know that she probably is.
Well that's all for now!
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Forgot to mention
So i forgot to mention that as a Christmas present I got NH a new puppy dog. We got her from a puppymill rescue. She is a miniature dauschund and is a pain in my butt but I love her!!
She is the black one. Her name is Isabelle and she is a tri-color mini that weighs 12lbs. which is about 4 more lbs than Daphne. She is a great addition to our house!
December
Well lots has happened in Dec. First was finals for me and NH. Super stressfull and NH missed passing a class by three points so now she has to remeadiate the class when we get back from Christmas break. I pray to God that she passes or that makes us a 5 year med student. UGH I can't stay here one more year, I think I will literally go crazy.
I had this brilliant idea that I was going to make the Christmas gifts this year because we are on such a budget. We as my usual self I procrastinated until the last minute and then I made orange marmalade, cookie mix, scone mix, NH made chocolate covered spoons, I made mom a scrapbook and Ali a blanket. Plus I managed to get out 34 Christmas cards. I'm exhausted again just thinking about it!. LOL
So my insurance finally kicked in and I went to see the Dr. with a whole laundry list of things that are happending to me. It is going to be a slow and expensive process (thank you Carleen for your gift, even at such a high price). Anyway, the Dr. agreed that I'm super depressed and have anxiety through the roof and put me on meds for that. I also had my Vit. D checked and it was 14.9 and to give you non medical folks and idead normal levels are 33.0 to 100.0 so I'm having to Vit D3 everyday and will have it checked again in February. I was finally able to explain to NH just how bad my anxiety was once I realized how bad it was. My thoughts race all the time about everything, even in my sleep. I dream about running out of money, NH failing out of school, me losing my job, people diying, paying bills, cleaning the house, cooking dinner, getting my school work done, making sure NH does her homework and passes her tests. It never stops for me, EVER. Just writing that stressed me out and my heartrate just shot up. UGH. NOT to mention how much I miss my family and my friends. I seriously didn't think it would be this hard to do this!
So I was able to go to Colorado and spend time with my Dad and visit some people over Christmas break because my office closed and there was no where for me to work. I had a nice relaxing time except I fell down on my back, which already hurts all the time. We left Colorado a day early to beat a terrible storm. All in all it was a good trip!
I had this brilliant idea that I was going to make the Christmas gifts this year because we are on such a budget. We as my usual self I procrastinated until the last minute and then I made orange marmalade, cookie mix, scone mix, NH made chocolate covered spoons, I made mom a scrapbook and Ali a blanket. Plus I managed to get out 34 Christmas cards. I'm exhausted again just thinking about it!. LOL
So my insurance finally kicked in and I went to see the Dr. with a whole laundry list of things that are happending to me. It is going to be a slow and expensive process (thank you Carleen for your gift, even at such a high price). Anyway, the Dr. agreed that I'm super depressed and have anxiety through the roof and put me on meds for that. I also had my Vit. D checked and it was 14.9 and to give you non medical folks and idead normal levels are 33.0 to 100.0 so I'm having to Vit D3 everyday and will have it checked again in February. I was finally able to explain to NH just how bad my anxiety was once I realized how bad it was. My thoughts race all the time about everything, even in my sleep. I dream about running out of money, NH failing out of school, me losing my job, people diying, paying bills, cleaning the house, cooking dinner, getting my school work done, making sure NH does her homework and passes her tests. It never stops for me, EVER. Just writing that stressed me out and my heartrate just shot up. UGH. NOT to mention how much I miss my family and my friends. I seriously didn't think it would be this hard to do this!
So I was able to go to Colorado and spend time with my Dad and visit some people over Christmas break because my office closed and there was no where for me to work. I had a nice relaxing time except I fell down on my back, which already hurts all the time. We left Colorado a day early to beat a terrible storm. All in all it was a good trip!
November
So not much exciting happened in November except that neither my Dad nor my Mom came out for Thanksgiving even though they both said that they would. Oh Well, I made a turkey and all the stuffings and it was great! My depression and hatred for this town is increasing. I will be so glad when my health insurance kicks in.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Neglect, Neglect, Neglect!!
So I admit that I haven't posted in quite awhile so I have decided that I will have a series of posts (at least one for each month) that I have missed and then try very diligently to keep up on this since as of right now this is one of my only ways to vent!. LOL
Well as you can see from my last post I FINALLY found a job. I'm a phlebotomist (I might have already mentioned that) working in a doctor's office. That part is really weird for me. The RN's are actually LPN's and it's weird how I'm soo much more qualified then they are yet I'm just the "lab girl". I'm not used to having Dr's not speak to me or act as if I don't exist! Oh well.
So school is a pain in my butt and I'm not used to working and school and maintaining a household and I'm quite sure that I am severely depressed not to mention exhausted! Luckly my health care benefits kick in in December. School is much harder for NH than she thought it would be and I'm not sure how to help her so that has added stress to me.. I"M SO FREAKING STRESSED OUT!!!
Well as you can see from my last post I FINALLY found a job. I'm a phlebotomist (I might have already mentioned that) working in a doctor's office. That part is really weird for me. The RN's are actually LPN's and it's weird how I'm soo much more qualified then they are yet I'm just the "lab girl". I'm not used to having Dr's not speak to me or act as if I don't exist! Oh well.
So school is a pain in my butt and I'm not used to working and school and maintaining a household and I'm quite sure that I am severely depressed not to mention exhausted! Luckly my health care benefits kick in in December. School is much harder for NH than she thought it would be and I'm not sure how to help her so that has added stress to me.. I"M SO FREAKING STRESSED OUT!!!
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