Fun with my Niece

On August 8th, I got to go to the Oregon Air show with Ali, my mom and my guy. We had soo much fun i just had to show you a pic of her and the awesome jet. (pictures were taken by Steve)



Here was the fighter jet that scared the crap out of Ali and I and I ended up having to stick my fingers in her ears. LOL

Pondering

Well like I said in the beginning, I'm not very good at this. I'm not sure what to share, what not too and what is an overshare. LOL

For those that know me really well. You are aware that I tend to over react and am a very emotional person. I feel deeply, love deeply and am just sometimes crazy emotional. Today is one of those days. I am totally stressed out (although I know I shouldn't be). I keep trying to tell myself that there is no reason to be this stressed but I am. I have to pack! Pack for moving to my temporary housing, pack for my trip to Hawaii (which is happening the second week of my job), and pack for the BIG move which will happen sometime between Sept. 20 to Oct. 1st. I have realized that most of my stuff is for someone with a family and a house. I.E. Craft stuff (i'm not just talking some stuff, I have enough to fill an entire bedroom : Sewing machine, thread, quilting, scrap booking, card making, knitting, jewelry making, painting, kids crafts and other stuff i'm sure , 101 cookie cutters, baking and other stuff. While I'm not complaining that I have all this great stuff. I"m not sure that 1. I can fit it in a 400-800 sq ft. apt. and 2. Will have anytime in the first year to actually do much crafting, nor may I want to. LOL

Then there is the money issue. I know that everyone thinks about money, but for me it makes me really really nervous. I have been homeless or near homeless twice in my life and have had a pretty poor life growing up, so money is always a nerve point for me. I will not get a pay check until at least the middle if not the end of Sept. Which means that I will have gone a month to a month and a half without a pay check. Ugh #1. I have to have money for bills, gas now (which since I'm not used to driving everyday to and from work has turned into a huge stress), money for rent for temp housing and then money for the deposit, first,last and fees. Ugh # 2 Then there's money for food and all the crap you have to get when you get a new place. I mostly gave everything of that nature to Danny when I kicked him out cause he had the kids so I have to re-aquire all those things.

I know that this may seems irrational, but right now its a big stressor for me.

Great Day

Today has been a great day all around. I found temporary housing in Seattle and two of my friends announced that they are preggers!! This day couldn't get any better.......

Big News/ Quick Change

Well this has been one of the craziest weeks of my life. On friday I Accepted the job in Seattle. I start on Sept. 3rd. AHhhhhhh. I ended up quitting Statline on Friday because I need the time to try to find a place to live, pack and move before the 3rd. NO pressure. I'm super excited but also in trepidation. This is probably the biggest thing I have ever done. I spent all day yesterday up in Seattle driving around looking at neighborhoods and trying to remember what it is like driving in traffic! I have resigned to the fact that I may be eating ramen again for the next few months. LOL I guess working from home for the last two years have spoiled me! You all will have to bear with me for the next month as I have no idea where i'm going to live or how all this will work!

Gap no More!!

I went to the Dentist yesterday and finally had my post braces gap filled! I'm so excited!! I can't stop looking at my teeth in the mirror.. HaHaHa I"m such a dork

Big Day

Ok, So yesterday at about the same time I got a package from Fed/Ex with my Severance Details (which by law I am not at liberty to discuss) and I got a phone call from Sightlife(job in Seattle). I also got several emails from 4 other jobs I applied to with rejection letters. Big Day

Anyway, my current job said I have a position until Nov. 30Th pending any un foreseen issues or me getting terminated. Blah Blah Blah. There was a list of 31 people who got laid off this week, leaving 14 people to work 24/7. NO, thanks...... You can take this job and shove it


The phone call I got was good news. I have been offered the job as long as I can be up in Seattle and ready to work by Sept. 1. HOLY SHIT!! That is two weeks away. How am I gonna pull this off. Find a Place to live, move, get situated, get household stuff, work clothes, figure out the commute. So I have spent the last two days trying to find affordable housing and so far have not been successful at all. UGH!!! STRESS!!! I should be stoked, but I'm actually kinda freakin
out. I know that everything will work out, but gees. LOL

Just thought I would update you all, I know that you are at the edge of your seats waiting to hear. HAHAHAHAHA

Bad News/ New Opportunity?

Well this is a bit delayed but about a month ago a got news that myself and (44 others) are being laid off at work and that it will be sometime between Aug. 2 and Dec. 1. So of course my first reaction is panic and fear. I was just devastated and so many thoughts and emotions came to the surface.

First I only took the job for my family because the children needed a stable home life and Flight for Life couldn't offer that. Second, when we moved to Oregon (which was to get help with the kids and because Danny lost our home) I worked from home and did not bother to get my reciprocity for my EMT out here. So I feel stupid that I let myself get into this position. I lost my family and now my job!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME...........

So After lots of meditation, I have come to the realization that this is a good thing. This is the final part of a life that was very bad for me(I will blog about my marriage and divorce later), and I have come to terms that I am okay with losing my job.

So I am now looking for a new job, I have interviewed with two companies and am waiting to hear from them. One will still be working from home and the other is in Seattle, so that will require me to move.

On a side note, I have a meeting with the HR dept. tomorrow to find out what my Severance Package is and if I still have a job after tomorrow. Part of me just hopes that tomorrow I will be laid off so the work drama will be over!!

I'm Caving.......

Well I have decided to join the blog band wagon. Everyone always asks me what is new in my life or what's happening and I can never remember what I have and haven't told people, so this is my way of tell you all at the same time. I'm not very good at writing my thoughts and feelings, so we will see how this adventure plays out......... Stay tuned, this could get ugly!!