Sad News

Well NH was given our options for years 3 and 4 rotations and Colorado is no longer on the list!  I can even begin to describe how devistated I am.  It's just another let down here at this college because that was also another reason why we decided to come here.  Now our options are Utah (um NO!), Phoenix, Witchita Kansas, or some more midwest and two northeast schools.  Anyway, I will be farther from my family and I will see less and less of NH.  I swear I am going to be on sooo many anti depressents and anxiety meds before this is all over it's not even funny.   On a positive note for me I'm going to start Pranic healing (google it) and there is a meditation this Sunday i sure hope it helps.

As for all the medical tests, so far everything has come back negative so I have no idea why I'm so exhausted ALL the time and still having bowel issues.  I'm getting tested for Celiac disease soon, so hopefully that will give some answers.

I have started swimming 5 days a weeks and have lost 21 lbs so far!!  Yay me.... I didn't think it could happen but it has.  I also went and saw the plastic surgeon about a breast reduction and he thinks it's possible at my current weight so I might hopefully have one in June and have insurance pay for it.

NH was diagnosed with ADD and has been placed on meds and is now doing much better in school and life and I'm so proud!  

That's all for now.   There are alot of people i'm praying for lately, just know that I'm praying for you!  xoxoxo

Cabin Fever or Maybe I'm just a Nut Job

Today has been a really weird day for me. Emotional ups and downs, can't concentrate to save my life. I feel sick and tired but not really anything in particular hurts or aches.  I have been cooped up in the house for two days straight because of this blizzard and all of a sudden I'm crying like and idiot and crapping my brains out. 

Which btw my Colonoscopy and Endoscopy went well I guess. I got a script for Prilosec so I guess I have GERD.  Still not explaination for the soft serve coming out of my behind, but at least there is not blood. 

Anyway,  I think I'm so emotional because I take on the emotions of others (their stress, anger, sadness, fear,etc) and today was a very bad day for my very close friend J.  I also have a feeling that my aunt is not doing well and I'm not being told.  Somedays I really wish I wasn't a feeler (as I sit here with tearing streaming down my face)  and NO I'm not PMSing!! 

Here's a pic of the blizzard that just rolled through my part of the country