Day 22- A picture of something you wish you were better at (this turned into a vent session)

I have the best of intentions and usually can start something, stick with it for about a week and then WHAM it's gone!  I suck at Discipline. The funny thing is that I used to be the most disciplined person that I knew(people would comment on it all the time). In high school I was up at 6 a.m., be at school by 7:00 for color guard practice, attend all my classes.  I would have weightlifting for 3 hours and then Cheer leading practice for an hour and half after school. Not to mention my routine on game days(lots more stuff after school).

My eating was very disciplined as well. Always appropriate meals with the right amount of protein, carbs, and fats.  I got great sleep and my homework was always completed(ahead of time) and I worked part-time as well. 

Fast forward 16 years (holy crap I have been out of high school for THAT long!) and I have absolutely no discipline. NONE

I can clean the house (just one example) and promise myself that I will clean and keep up with the house( I even make a chore chart, yes at my age I still make choir charts) and I do great for about 3 days and then boom the house is trashed again. I'm totally upset about it, bitching and moaning, whining and crying, yelling and screaming to S, but do I do anything about it?  NOPE except make a list of all the things that I need to clean again (even though I have that damn chore chart).

I know that I have been diagnosed with clinical depression, but REALLY?  Does it totally make you a worthless human being that has absolutely no discipline at all? It sure seems like it.  How the heck did that happen? How could I have truly lost all my discipline? How the heck do I get it back? I want so badly to be that person that was sooo disciplined! 

Day 20- Somewhere you'd love to travel

Ireland 

Day 19- A picture and a Letter

I thought this was fitting for Advent. It creates so much imagery for my life.

A planetary nebula designated NGC 2818, photographed by the Hubble Telescope. By NASA, ESA, and the Hubble Heritage Team (STScI/AURA)

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.

Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.

And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light. God saw that the light was good, and He separated the light from the darkness. God called the light "day," and the darkness he called "night." And there was evening, and there was morning - the first day.

- Genesis 1:1 - 5

http://blog.christianitytoday.com/images/2009/05/creation-day-one.html

The letter A: 

It is Advent season, the start of something new and the anticipation of something exciting.  This is how I feel about this season. I am learning to make peace with the things that have happened and look forward to the things yet to come! 

Day 18- A picture of your biggest insecurity

Day 17

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

I have two friends right now that I cannot express how much they mean to me. They are both people that I would have NEVER expected to care so much about, not because they are bad people but they are just so very different from how I was raised and what I'm used to. One of these friends reaches me on a level I can only describe and my long lost sister, my twin, my duplicate. The other friend has experienced some of the same loss that I have and knows my thoughts and understands them even when no one else does.  I hold these friends in the highest regards. They are my ROCK!!

Day 16

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

I never thought that I would say that GOD inspires me, but this year has been a year of GOD having a hand in my life daily. Growing up in a non-faith home was normal for me. While I would attend Sunday school with friends, I never belonged to a church of my own. When we moved here I found Trinity and that was totally GOD's doing.  I wasn't looking for him, he just found me.  Each day GOD pushes me to be a better person, to work through my frustrations, see through others eyes, and make me a better me. 

Day 13: A picture of your favorite band or artist

The Police.  This group has been my favorite since I was 2 years old!!

Day 12: A picture of something you love

Go little turtles go!!

Day 10: A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with

I have know J since middle school and we have done some pretty crazy things.  Man I love this girl!

Day 09: A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

My Mommy!

Day 08: A picture that makes you laugh

The lights were out most of the night and when they came on, she had soot all over her face!  LOL

Day 07: A picture of your most treasured item

My nieces are my most treasured item.  I would give my life for these girls. They are my heart and soul. 

Day 06: A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

I know that he is technically not a person, but I would love to be in his shoes for a day!!

Day Four: A Picture of your night

Went to Dinner with Friends at La Fuente Mexican Resaurant

Day 03- A picture of the cast from your favorite show

Day 02- A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Me, Sabrina and Lana ( I have known these girls since preschool)

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts

1. I have more freckles than anyone I know. 

2. I have had 2 knee surgeries, sinovial joint injections, and a


breast reduction all withing the last 6 months.

3. I participated in my first ever 9k this past weekend.

4. I have the best spouse/partner any would could ask for


5. I LOVE MY FAMILY

6. I am learning what GOD means to me 

7. I love my church family

8. I sing and dance at random

9. I wanted to be a dentist until I was 18 

10. I would give my life for my nieces

30 Day Challenge

This should be fun... So in the next thirty days I will be completing this list:

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show

Day 04 - A picture of your night

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

Day 19 - A picture and a letter

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

Day 25 - A picture of your day

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss